Senin, 04 Maret 2013

16th October 2012

Apakah aku pantas marah?
Memaksa bibir tersenyum ramah saat hati berduka,
Berdiam beberapa saat, agar tangis tak tumpah,
Menatap mu lagi, dan terdiam, lagi.

Logika ku meminta hati untuk memahami situasi,
Berfikir, mungkin harapan itu terlalu tinggi,
Terbawa emosi bahagia, yang terinjak oleh impian yang memang akan tetap jadi mimpi,
Ya…. aku kecewa, sangat kecewa.

Rupanya sakit jika hak terlupakan,
Memang benar sakit, ketika aku harus tetap bertahan tenang,
Dan menjadi bertambah sakit ketika sadar tak sedikit pun kau berusaha,

Kini aku mulai tertawa, mengakui kebodohan lucu ku,
Mengutuk benda cantik itu,
Berharap aku tak akan pernah menyentuh, apa lagi memilikinya,
Cukup lah aku tahu posisi ku,
Benda itu terlalu cantik untuk bersama ku,
Atau aku terlalu naif untuk bisa melihat nya di genggaman ku.



Nb: I never know how beautiful you are, white rose. J

This My March :)


Welcome March,,  
I have spent one month in SMA Dharmakarya UT, I’m proud to be one of member here. Now I have many students who I love. Big thanks to Alloh who gives me this power, positive power. I still have much energy to wake up early, to prepare for teaching, to smile when they (intuitively) hurting me, to this patient, to all of things that help me stand in that school. 
I can’t imagine what I will do when the time to live this awesome place came. I will miss them, the students, teachers, and my PPKT’s friends. First time I entered in XIA, I couldn’t hold my breath which unusual. I could not speak up, something that I love to do. It’s crazy. LOL I saw their faces, looked so confuse with many questions. I thought they felt that I was freak, without their permission, I asked them to debate after making them in two groups. Some of them tried to speak up, and some did nothing but sleepy. It’s so bad, but good to be remembered. Now, they are so kind, I love them so much. Being happy to teach them, and I tried to teach in fun way. I think it works.  The day after, I came to XIS. Felt different in that class, they were so welcome and appreciate me as well. I could teach them without afraid to hurt them. Now, as XIA, XIS also take my heart, I love them so much.  
Wish you knew guys, I’m afraid to live you all. But something that I really afraid is if you can’t accept me as your teacher. So, sorry if I can’t be as you wish, but believe me, I try to do my best in teaching you. Sorry for asking to do what you don’t wanna do, but I just try to give what you need, not what you want. Welcome March, let me spent that little days with them in beautiful memories. 
 Hope this month we will get new great experiences, new knowledge, and being so happy together. :*